I was thinking about my purpose in life for awhile now, as we had a relief society lesson soon after moving into this ward concerning just this. Some days I feel like I don't get a lot done besides change diapers, feed kids, play cars, and clean (not complaining, I really do love it!). I have been feeling a little pressure to get a job, not for financial reasons, but because I need to work to keep my RN license and now seems like a good time. I have talked to some people who drop comments like: "Aren't you excited to get out of the house and get a break?" and "I would go insane if I didn't work!" "
After talking with Dan and reading a talk I ran across from last conference I have regained that perspective of what really matters. The talk was by Elder L. Tom Perry in last April's conference session entitled, "Mother Teaching Children in the Home." I knew that teaching my children was my most important purpose at this time and still know this, however, I was starting to notice the pull from the world. This by no means is aimed at those who have to work or even want to. This is just a personal battle.
I don't want to work and never have since I had kids. I would be so sad every time I left Levi to go to work or clinicals. But, I knew that I was supposed to go to school and that I was doing the right thing. I am extremely grateful that we have that backup. I have never been able to leave my kids with just anyone and only for certain reasons. Dan and I are getting very good at juggling our schedules! This may be because we have no family around. Maybe I am overprotective but, that is just me. So, for now I am just going to LOVE where I am and ENJOY every second with my two cute little boys. If the right job comes along that does not stress my family life than we will work it out. I do want to keep my license, that is very important to me as well. But, my boys are my primary responsibility at the moment:) Okay off my soapbox and check out my cuties:
2 comments:
I feel your pain. It's the same situation with my career as well. But I love staying at home. I always pictured being a sahm!
Your boys are so cute.
I hope you didn't think I was getting you to leave your boys or anything when I said, "would you like the break?" I meant it as a revitalizing thing. I need it sometimes, I guess I assume too much in thinking other moms would like it too. Just a 15 minute trip to the grocery store alone, or to walk around a store in the mall for 5 minutes while Jordan takes the kids into another store. Not leaving your kids for hours, I don't envy you on having to do that, just trying to keep it a positive thing for when you do have to. :)
Miss you Girly. You are one of my best friends ya know.
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